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2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-04-04T06:25:00

2007-04-04T10:26:26Z

...Never in my life have I ever felt so betrayed...

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-04-01T15:13:00

2007-04-01T19:19:47Z

Times have changed.
And will always change, ever on and on.
And with time, changes the seasons.
The bare cold of winter melting into the lush warmth of spring.
And with the seasons, the people.
They change from friends to strangers.
They change from enemies to lovers.
You have changed and so have I.
We are no longer who we were when winter began.

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-04-01T15:07:00

2007-04-01T19:08:41Z

What do I do when love comes back to find me with someone new?

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-03-29T18:35:00

2007-03-29T22:40:02Z

Why is it that everything I touch breaks?
Why is it that everyone I hold dies?
Why must I make a person's greatest virtue their deepest fault?
Why am I a bull in a china shop called life?
Why am I this monster?
What have I become?
What was I before?
What more could I destroy?
Could I cause the ocean to dry to a desert?
Could I make the sky fall?
Could I blacken the sun?
Why do I hurt you?
I don't won't to hurt you.
Hurt me instead.

Something strange...

2007-03-24T23:18:34Z

I came upon a place today,
A place that I recognized almost immediately.
It was a place that I saw in a dream long, long ago.
But, there it was, right in front of me.

It was something very strange,
Yet it didn't really bother me.

A park by a cove.
Battleship Cove.
We stumbled upon it today
On our monthly trip to
The-Middle-Of-Nowhere
To see my boyfriend.

Seeing the park triggered the dream to come back.
Being on a small boat and passing several much larger boats.
The boat slowing to a stop by the shore
I hopped off and headed towards a basketball court.
A white dog walked by.
A shot was fired.
I turned as a man fell dead.
Another fled quickly,
Wielding a gun.
I tried to run back to the boat,
But it had already moved along.

That's all I remember.

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-03-17T13:13:00

2007-03-17T17:18:41Z

♣ Erin Go Bragh ♣

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-03-17T12:21:00

2007-03-17T17:01:56Z

INTP - the Architect

You scored 0% I to E, 36% N to S, 61% F to T, and 73% J to P!

You are more introverted than extroverted. You are more intuitive than observant, you are more thinking based than feeling based, and you prefer to go with the flow rather than have a routine. The single word to describe your type is the Architect, which belongs to the larger group of rationals. You wish to sculpt the world around you. Others often find you arrogant, yet you have no desire to direct others, only to inform them. You must know the structure of things, and have a voracious appetite for knowledge. You are very rational in everything you do, and probably consider yourself smarter than most.

As a romantic partner, you can be playful with great energy to get things started, but not quite as good on follow through. You may have a tendency to hurt the more emotional types unintentionally by not sharing your own reactions and feelings as you can get swept up in your own ideas and projects. You want to be appreciated for your ability to respond quickly and to fix problems creatively. You need plenty of time to yourself - therefore your parnter must respect your need for independence and originality.

Your group summary: Rationals (NT)

Your type summary: INTP

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on I to E
You scored higher than 99% on N to S
You scored higher than 99% on F to T
You scored higher than 99% on J to P

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5 - the Observer

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose BZ - your Enneagram type is FIVE (aka "The Thinker").

"I need to understand the world"

Observers have a need for knowledge and are introverted, curious, analytical,
and insightful.

How to Get Along with Me

Be independent, not clingy.

Speak in a straightforward and brief manner.

I need time alone to process my feelings and thoughts.

Remember that If I seem aloof, distant, or arrogant, it may be that
I am feeling uncomfortable.

Make me feel welcome, but not too intensely, or I might doubt your
sincerity.

If I become irritated when I have to repeat things, it may be because
it was such an effort to get my thoughts out in the first place.

don't come on like a bulldozer.

Help me to avoid my pet peeves: big parties, other people's loud music,
overdone emotions, and intrusions on my privacy.

What I Like About Being a Five

standing back and viewing life objectively

coming to a thorough understanding; perceiving causes and effects

my sense of integrity: doing what I think is right and not being influenced
by social pressure

not being caught up in material possessions and status

being calm in a crisis

What's Hard About Being a Five

being slow to put my knowledge and insights out in the world

feeling bad when I act defensive or like a know-it-all

being pressured to be with people when I don't want to be

watching others with better social skills, but less intelligence or
technical skill, do better professionally

Fives as Children Often

spend a lot of time alone reading, making collections, and so on

have a few special friends rather than many

are very bright and curious and do well in school

have independent minds and often question their parents and teachers

watch events from a detached point of view, gathering information

assume a poker face in order not to look afraid

are sensitive; avoid interpersonal conflict

feel intruded upon and controlled and/or ignored and neglected

Fives as Parents

are often kind, perceptive, and devoted

are sometimes authoritarian and demanding

may expect more intellectual achievement than is developmentally appropriate

may be intolerant of their children expressing strong emotions

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy

Discover the 9 Types of People

Harper
SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You liked the test?

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please don't forget to RATE it...

(but remember! it had only two questions!!! That surely makes it worth a "5", right ;-)))

you wanna know MORE?

so check out, what Wikipedia says about your type...

...even more you'll find in Google

or do you prefer to

You are not completely happy with the result?!

You chose BZ

Would you rather have chosen:

AZ (THREE)

CZ (ONE)

BX (NINE)

BY (FOUR)

My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on ABC
You scored higher than 99% on XYZ

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Rogue

48% Combativeness, 60% Sneakiness, 50% Intellect, 30% Spirituality

Sneaky, ain't ya? You're a Rogue!

Well now, you’re not the most trustworthy person in the world, are you?

Rogues are sneaky and skillful. They play an important part in every adventuring party by locating and disabling traps, scouting the area, and taking enemies by surprise. Unfortunately, most rogues will try and pick your pocket the moment you’re distracted.

You’re probably both deceptive and competent, which means you can usually get what you want. On the other hand, lying a lot won't earn you many friends.

A bit of helpful advice: No matter how temping it looks, don't try to pick the fighter’s pocket. He might go psycho on you.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on Combativeness
You scored higher than 99% on Sneakiness
You scored higher than 99% on Intellect
You scored higher than 99% on Spirituality

Link: The RPG Class Test written by MFlowers on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results

Warmth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Intellect	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Emotional Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Aggressiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Liveliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Dutifulness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Social Assertiveness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	42%
Sensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Abstractness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Introversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Anxiety	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Openmindedness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Independence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	66%
Perfectionism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	58%
Tension	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%

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2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-03-15T20:55:00

2007-03-16T01:11:02Z

Hello there, people of LJ.

Well, anyway...

Where to start?
It's been so long...

I'll just generally get to what I came here to say.
For once in a long while I need a bit of venting,
Solely for the sake of easing a bit of frustration off myself.
Maybe even getting a little advice.

So, as you may or very well may not know,
I have a boyfriend now.
I know, shock and awe.
You all thought Andrea was a lesbian.

Sorry, I can't help but throw a joke in.

...Back to the subject...

Well, basically his mother hates
I don't mean she dislikes me.
I mean she'd like to choke me with her bare hands.

Which makes no sense.
She has no evidence behind her reasoning.
I mean, seriously.
The longest conversation I've had with the woman lasted about two minutes and was basically me introducing myself and asking how she was.
And now it seems her main goal is to keep James and I apart.

...It just makes me so frustrated because I don't know what I'm doing wrong so I don't know how to fix it...

I've only got two things that could possibly even slightly be "reasons"
(They're not rational, but reasons none-the-less)
For why she would hate me so damn much.

1. My name is Andrea. Her name is Andrea. She had her son at the age of sixteen. I'm sixteen and dating her son.
So, she must think that I'm going to get pregnant or something. Which also means she doesn't trust her kid.

2. The lip ring. It tends to automatically make people assume that I'm some me-against-the-world kind of kid.
Which really pisses me off. I hate when people assume they know everything about me just by my appearance.

...It really isn't fair...
I'm not even getting a chance.
I'm not getting anything.
It's not fair.

I love him.
I really do.

But, do I really want to battle his mother for the rest of forever?

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-02-03T15:28:00

2007-02-03T20:29:07Z

I am fat.

FatFatFat

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-01-13T23:47:00

2007-01-14T04:48:58Z

I took a walk today.

There was no one there to hold my hand.

So, I held my own.

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-01-09T15:16:00

2007-01-09T20:16:45Z

Andrea is pimp.

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2007-01-01T18:41:00

2007-01-01T23:41:11Z

I will never be you.

Ever.

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-12-26T12:18:00

2006-12-26T17:18:46Z

If all else fails, I'll just show them how I feel.

And even then they won't understand how much it hurts.

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-12-25T15:29:00

2006-12-25T20:29:26Z

Happy Greed Day! =D

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-12-17T10:23:00

2006-12-17T15:23:58Z

Hello self, haven't seen you in a while. :D

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-12-16T00:33:00

2006-12-16T05:33:53Z

...Each day you will find some reason.

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-12-11T16:32:00

2006-12-11T21:32:33Z

Jingle bells, jingle bells... :D

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-12-09T09:41:00

2006-12-09T14:41:18Z

Work myself to death for you
To make a more perfect me.

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-12-03T18:46:00

2006-12-03T23:46:48Z

Sorry I'm not everything you've ever wanted. <3

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-11-30T23:04:00

2006-12-01T04:04:56Z

Sometimes I think this is all a dream.

Sometimes I think you're just playing games.

Sometimes I think that I'm just blind.

Sometimes I think you never felt it.

Sometimes I think you never will.
_{Sometimes I wish I didn't think these things.}

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-11-30T00:52:00

2006-11-30T05:52:37Z

Factor		low score	high score
Gregariousness	30%	quiet, reclusive	engaging, socially bold
Sociability	38%	withdrawn, hidden	warm, open, inviting
Assertiveness	42%	timid, gunshy	controlling, aggressive
Poise	46%	uneasy around others	socially comfortable
Leadership	46%	stays in background	prefers to lead
Provocativeness	66%	modest, plays it safe	bold, uninhibited, cocky
Self-Disclosure	50%	private, contained	very open and revealing
Talkativeness	30%	quiet, stealthy, invisible	motor mouth, loud
Group Attachment	30%	loves solitude	prefers to be with others
Understanding	70%	insensitive, schizoid	respectful, sympathetic
Warmth	66%	disinterested in others	supportive, helpful
Morality	62%	break/ignore the rules	play by the rules
Pleasantness	58%	aloof or disagreeable	gets along with others
Empathy	70%	out of tune w/ others	in tune with others
Cooperation	46%	competitive, warlike	agreeable, peaceful
Sympathy	62%	socially inconsiderate	socially conscious
Tenderness	54%	cold hearted, selfish	warm hearted, selfless
Nurturance	70%	self pleasing, me first	people pleasing, me last
Conscientiousness	58%	reckless, unscheduled	careful, planner
Efficiency	42%	unreliable, lazy	finisher, follows through
Dutifulness	62%	leisurely, derelict	strict, rule abiding
Purposefulness	46%	inattentive, undisciplined	prepared, focused
Organization	66%	relaxed, oblivious	detail oriented, anal
Cautiousness	58%	impulsive, spendthrift	restrained, cautious
Rationality	62%	irrational, random	direct, logical
Perfectionism	58%	careless, error prone	detail obsessed
Planning	50%	disorganized, random	scheduled, clean
Stability	58%	easily frustrated	calm, cool, unphased
Happiness	50%	unhappy, dissatisfied	self content, positive
Calmness	62%	touchy, volatile	even tempered, tolerant
Moderation	46%	needs instant gratification	easily delays gratification
Toughness	70%	hypersensitive, moody	thick skinned
Impulse Control	70%	lacks self control	maintains composure
Imperturbability	58%	highly emotional	emotionally contained
Cool-headedness	50%	demanding, controlling	accommodating
Tranquility	50%	emotionally volatile	emotionally neutral
Intellect	66%	instinctive, non-analytical	intellectual, analytical
Ingenuity	70%	lacks new ideas	innovative, novel
Reflection	70%	unreflective, coarse	art and beauty lover
Competence	62%	slow to understand/think	intellectual, brainy
Quickness	66%	intellectually dependent	intellectually independent
Introspection	70%	not self reflective	self searching
Creativity	66%	dull headed	synthesizer, iconoclast
Imagination	70%	practical, realistic	dreamer, unrealistic
Depth	70%	lacks curiosity	mental explorer

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2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-11-29T23:23:00

2006-11-30T04:23:50Z

You are a confusing little fucker. ><;;

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-11-28T15:30:00

2006-11-28T20:30:44Z

Shine on down.

[I swear I'll get back to
doing normal entries
...Eventually...]

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-11-23T09:51:00

2006-11-23T14:51:54Z

Here here to a day of mass sin.

2nd_rate_havoc @ 2006-11-15T07:30:00

2006-11-15T12:30:37Z

But, don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be.
So, darlin', save the last dance for me.